I uploaded this post on February 7th about my hypothyroidism. Symptoms, discovery, and steps going forward. It has been about two months now, so I wanted to give a little update.
I didn’t have high hopes for feeling much different. Even though logically, I knew that taking medication should be different than all the things I had tried in the past, I had already failed so many times that I felt like that was just going to be my reality now.
I couldn’t have been more wrong.
I feel like a whole new person, yet I feel back to myself again. I didn’t realize how bad I was feeling until I felt good again. The depression, anxiety, sleeplessness, night sweats, bloating, constipation, fatigue, GONE (doesn’t that sound like the side effect list from literally any drug on television?). I’ve lost a couple pounds and I haven’t changed anything about the way I’m eating or exercising. The weight change isn’t really that big of deal – although I do feel I am getting some muscle definition back. Objectively, who knows if I really look different, or if it just my sunnier outlook making me feel I look better. But either way, I am happy and I feel good. I am having more good days than bad with positive self talk and good body image.
My running paces are starting to come back too. Not as quickly as I had hoped, but that’s ok. I’ll take it. I still have a day here and there where a workout sucks the life out of me and it feels like every single symptom comes back with a vengeance. But after a day or two, I feel good again. Every once in a while, I feel like I should be worried about something, or depressed about something. In a perverse way it is almost like I am forgetting something. Forgetting to feel like crap, I guess. But, then I remember – no I don’t! I don’t have to feel bad anymore.
I am so glad I stuck to my guns when I felt something was off. I am so grateful to my family for encouraging me to go see the doctor and supporting me. I go back to the doctor after Boston for a check up. I am currently on samples of medication, and don’t have a prescription yet. TBD on what the next move is. I know a lot of people hate the idea of having to live on a pill. And I respect that everyone gets to have their own views on medications. However, for me – I couldn’t be more grateful that I found some answers.